A Time for Change!!!

So, this year I set certain Goals for my self that at this point, (December 13, 2012) remain unfulfilled. Go Figure. They were so simple and yet, I just could not pull them off. I wanted to:

A) Get a Better Job:
I am currently a Groomer and kennel attendant at a kennel that I absolutely hate!!! I have been there for three years now and I just now asked for a raise that I may or may not get. Even though I KNOW I deserve it. I have applied for job after job and gone on countless interviews and nothing has come out of it.

B) Lose Weight:
I have been overweight all my life. It is nothing new to me. I am just getting fed up with it. I am always in pain or tired and I really hate looking in the mirror and seeing the countless fat rolls that are my back and mid section. I have not gained weight this year, (Thank God) but I have not lost any either. Well actually that is a lie. I have fluctuated between 407 and 414 for the past year and a half. I just need to make myself do the work. Unfortunately, I am always extremely tired and SERIOUSLY lacking the motivation to look ridiculous while working out... even in my own living room.

C) Go On A Date:)
I am 26 (almost 27) and I have never had a boyfriend! All of my friends are married or in relationships or at least have HAD a relationship. I don't even know what that feels like. I don't even remember what it feels like to be asked out. I have been asked out be for and have gone on dates, but that was in HS. Yeah. I am that pathetic. And people wonder why I am so down on myself all the time. I am pretty, I know I am, but refer to Goal B as to why guys don't like me. Not the guys I like anyway.

So as a result of my lack of accomplishment this year, I have decided that I am SICK of being so pathetic. I am starting a weight loss plan that hopefully my Mom and sis will join in on because it would just be easier with a buddy or two and I will be starting Paul Mitchell School this coming February. Obviously, sitting back and hoping God makes things happen for me is just not working, so I need to take it upon myself to make things happen for me! And they will.

My current weight, as of 20 minutes ago is 411 Pounds. Hey! Don't judge! I actually lost 3 pounds! I would like to lose 10 pounds a month and hopefully by the time my 10 year HS reunion rolls around, I won't look like a beached whale! BTW, That is only okay when I say it! So assuming my reunion is in the Spring of 2014, that gives me 18 months to lose weight. If I stick to my plans, that will put me at 231 Pounds. I think that is pretty reasonable. I will be updating this blog every month with my progress.

Wish me luck!!!!

Aggrivation!!!!!!!!!

Okay so I haven't posted in a LONG time! Basically, I have lost my job and I have been going on countless and yet meaningless interviews and still nothing. I know that there are about 10,000 people in this very area that are also looking for jobs and I know this may sound wrong, but I do not care about those 10,000 other people. I care about me and my family!!!!! I used to be able to pay my own bills and help out with stuff and I used to be able to shop! I miss shopping!!!! It is driving me up the wall! And to top it all off, I am starting to notice that everyone around me is either in a relationship or getting married!!!! I mean I am happy for my friends but it is fucking depressing! Seriously, what the hell is so wrong with me? GRRRRRR! Okay, I just had to get all of that off my chest. I'm fine really. I am going to go run someone over with my car now!

Always,
K

Twitter

HOLY COW! I just started getting on Twitter two days ago and already, I'm hooked! I can't get enough. Currently I am following, Vanessa hudgens (fake and real), Zefron, Ashton Kutcher, Billy Bush (Hot), Jimmy Fallon (hotter), Ellen Degenerous, Corbin Bleu and my sis! LOL And other people that I don't really know but they are following me so it is only fair. It is friggin' addictive. It is the best waste of time ever!

REST IN PEACE NATASHA RICHARDSON!!!!!

EEEEEEEWWWWWWWW

Currently, everyone is fussing over Danielle Panabaker. Because she is "oh so Awesome"! NOT!!!!! I personally despise the girl. Personally, I'm sure she is a nice girl, but professionally, her acting skills are crap in my opinion. I have yet to see "Friday the 13th" but I am secretly hoping that her character gets the Axe....or Machete or whatever the crap Jason uses. Everytime I hear her talk, it is like nails on a chalkboard. Her acting is SO bad that even Disney has stopped using the bitch. She needs to disappear! Everytime I see her I feel the uncontrollable urge to punch her in her crap lousy face. If I could I would put the three people in the whole world that I despise on a little raft and drop them in the middle of the ocean..... or on an island somewhere.... not the Lost island though cause it is "Civilized". I think the world would be a happier place with out these three people...... I know I would be.

STORY TIME!!!!!

Don't you hate it when you can relate to people you don't really like all that much. I do. I can fully relate to Miley Cyrus now. Oh Joy. She has a new book coming out call Miles to go and in it she describes being severely bullied in Middle school and even mentions the kids having an "Anti- Miley" club. Here is where I relate to her. We were ALL bullied at some point in our childhood. Weather it be elementary school, middle school or high school. We all have had SOME bad experience with bullying.... yes, even you bullies! Anyway. My experience was throughout most of my elementary school years. In first grade, people made fun of me because I was the ONLY girl with a boy as a friend. infact, he was my only friend...... at the time. Second grade, I didn't have any friends that really stand out....... but no one really bullied me either. Third grade, I had a few more friends..... no real bullying...... forth grade was one of in not the WORST year. I had two friends. Count em.... 1....2. Two friends. Mimi Romerez or something and Jenny Chang. Jenny was my best friend. She was kinda bitchy but totally cool. Every Friday, some time between lunch and the end of recess, we would get into a fight. She would tell me she hated me and that she never wanted to be my friend which of course hurt my feelings and made me cry... and then during our extra recess she would disappear and I would be alone on the swings or sitting alone under the roofed top of the spiral slide. Then come Monday, she would start talking to me like nothing ever happened. This would confuse the bloody hell outta me as you can imagine, but hey a friend is a friend right. This continued for a while and and every week she would diss and ditch me and Monday we'd be cool, but then I got sick of it. On that Friday, I found her on the play ground at our extra recess. She was heading under the big slide where a group of girls were waiting and I stopped her and I said, "You know, if you don't want to be my friend, fine! But I am tired of this crap where you are my friend all week and then Friday comes along and you hate me and Monday you don't. It is fair and I don't even want to be your friend anymore!!!!!" (I swear that was like big time smack talk in the 4th grade). Sh of course played it cool and said "Fine" and marched off under the slide to meet the girls and I went off and played on my own feeling pretty proud of myself. She called me later that night and apologized for everything and told me what was going on. She told me that the reason that she was doing this every Friday, was because the group of girls under the slide was not just a group of girls under the slide. They were the principal members of the "I hate Katie F Club"! Everyweek, they would meet under the slide and talk shit about me and Jenny had found out about it and fought with me every week just so they would think she didn't like me. She would sit in on the meetings and see what they were saying about me. And they woul say the stupid things like I was fat, and ugly and smelly.... blah blah blah. Anyway, when I found that out, I was livid! But I was glad that I at least had a friend on the inside that was looking out for me...... so yeah I think that was my worst bully story...... yeah. All I know is, when I have kids of my own, if someone wants to bully them, I am gonna make sure the are equiped with better combacks than " I know you are but what am I" and "I'm rubber you're glue what ever you say bounces off of me and sticks to you!"

Lost Superlatives!!!

I have always loved these things in High school and my sister and I were bored last night so we came up with Superlatives for every character on Lost!!!! Here we go:

Jack: Future Drunk/ Island's nicest ass
Sawyer: Bringin' sexy back
Desmond: Inventor of Sexy
Sayid: More bad ass than James Bond/ Bond's worst nightmare
John Locke: Mistake # 1,845,257.5 and counting
Faraday: *giggle*
Miles: Most likely to get shot in the hood
Bernard: Rambo wannabe/ most likely to accidently shoot self
Hurley: Future Ted "Theodore" Logan
Jin: Only looks cute and cuddley
Sun: Speaks better english than you
Charlie: Resume: Former Hobbit
Claire: Second coolest accent on the island/ Token Aussie
Juliet: McBlinky/ Useless item # 3
Ben: HUH?!?!?!?!?!
Danielle: *icky shiver*
Tom: Only looks tough
Rose: The REAL Rambo
Nikki and Paulo: Where the hell did they come from?!?!?!
Kate: Most likely to "come with you..." in more ways than one
Vincent: Champion Hide and Seeker (they are still looking)
Smoke Monster: Whoogie Boogie
Jacob: Ben's imaginary and only friend/ Champion Hide and seeker... until Vincent
Christian Shephard: Not Quite dead yet/ Most likey to be your daddy too!
Boone: Scares John Locke
Michael: Back-stabbing SOB
Walt: Best Growth Spurt
Libby: The Shady Lady
Ana Lucia: One step down from Chuck Norris
Shannon: Useless Item # 4
Charlotte: Useless item #5
Polar Bears: WTF moment #5
Mr. Eko: Scares the Smoke Monster
Ethan: Didn;t think his plan through
Richard: Master of Eyeliner
Penny: Nearly- useless item #1
The Hatch: Well THAT lasted long...
Oceanic Airplane: Most likely to fold under pressure
Time Warp: Leading cause of Migranes and death on the island
The Island: Not mapped yet/ more fucked up than Hogwarts.

So there you have it! Feel free to let me know if we have forgotten any.

Always,
K

He just wasn't that into me....

Don't you just hate it when you see a movie that gets you thinking about things you have done in the past. I do. Because I always come back to the exact same thing. The crazy crush I had on one of the best guy friends I have ever had and I had to ruin the damn friendship by trying to stretch it into a fucking relationship. I swear I could just kick myself in the ass every time I think about it. I recently saw "He's just not that into you" Great movie. And Greg Behrendt (the guy who wrote the book) is a fucking genius! The movie, is about a group of women, the obsessive lonely single girl, the girl that has been with the guy for some odd number of years and he won't pop the question, the "happily" married girl.... her husband's mistress and her best friend. I think these categories pretty much cover most women. Obsessive daters, the constant bridesmaid, the crazy wife with the hot hubby, the girl that thinks she is sexy but really isn't (ScarJo) and finally the girl with the awesomely funny personality that can't seem to meet a decent guy (wow... sounds like someone I know...). This movie/book, makes us aware of ALL the mistakes that we, as women make when dating/marrying/stalking/cyber-stalking a guy. And everything that is said and done totally makes sense if you REALLY think about it. Greg/ Alex..... you will meet him in the movie....... are the guy friend that EVERY girl should have. A brutally honest, yet awesomely funny guy friend. Cause the fact of the matter is that as women, we are not going to tell our girlfriend who is one the brink of tears after a date didn't call, "Honey, he obviously does not like you" Who actually wants to hear that from their girlfriend who is supposed to be supportive and compassionate. So we often resort to telling little white lies to make us feel better like, "Maybe he is scared" or "Maybe he is waiting for YOU to call him" or "Maybe he got his by a cab and is unable to call". I know I say things like that all the time. But does it REALLY make us feel better? Or is it just a temporary fix if you will for the pain that is sure to follow? I'll go with the second choice. What if your girlfriend finds out that he actually was NOT hit by a cab but is not calling be he genuinely does not give a shit? What happens then? I'll tell you what happens. All Hell breaks loose and then next thing ya know you got a huge ass cat fight on your hands. Not cool. I think from now on, I will just be honest... but nice. "I don't know if he is that interested..." and then there is my favorite follow up line, "If he can see what an awesome girl you are then that is HIS loss. You deserve better." Totally true. Honesty is the best policy... and I know what you are thinking, "What kind of girlfriend would I be if I told her the truth and it kills her confidence?" Well, that is why you are a GIRLFRIEND! We all are blessed with the ability to pick ourselves and eachother up and dust off and move on.... with the help of chocolate and a mani/pedi of course.

Always,

K